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I swear, i have a good life i just.
Im not happy.
I literally have the best friends, Hailey, Lula, Amber, Caleb, Ricardo, Bailey, Miciah. I have amazing friends. BUt yet im fucking unhappy. I have dance, art, music. But im unhappy.
I know i know, its not possible. But I cant help getting nervous around you and wishing i was with you forever. this isnt the same as it is with Lula.
I want you to be mine. in person.
I wish i was beside you...
Ok so ill explain i guess. I remember looking back to the St. Louis and Chicago trip and just fun stuff I have done. I miss it so much. I miss my cousins, i miss all the happy times.
Honestly. i just need a hug right now. I would do anything to get to hug Lula.
Lula means so much tome. Nobody has even any idea. I swear, i cant even explain. I dont deserve him.
I am fucking sick of feeling this way. I cant be happy it wont stay. I know i fake and all so i seem happy but just, stop this pain tonight. please.
I just cant do it anymore but i promised i wouldnt leave you Lula. i just want to end it.
I just want to make all my friends happy but how can i do that when i barely function.
I literally didn't hang out with Hailey because I cant get out of this mood and i didnt want her to know.
what thefuck is wrong with me..
i just want to go home but i have no fucking idea where home is. i just cant stop crying and hurting myself i just cant stop. i dont want to anymore.. i feel like screaming and just running away.. im so pathetic. i literally have an amazing life besides my broken family and then people atschool and just... these memories. I should be over it but my mind is so fucking stupid it wont letme.
Please just make the pain go away.
i fake to you because im worthless and helpless.
so whats even the point.
i dont get why you dont let me end it.
i think one day its just going to happen...
Im not happy.
I literally have the best friends, Hailey, Lula, Amber, Caleb, Ricardo, Bailey, Miciah. I have amazing friends. BUt yet im fucking unhappy. I have dance, art, music. But im unhappy.
I know i know, its not possible. But I cant help getting nervous around you and wishing i was with you forever. this isnt the same as it is with Lula.
I want you to be mine. in person.
I wish i was beside you...
Ok so ill explain i guess. I remember looking back to the St. Louis and Chicago trip and just fun stuff I have done. I miss it so much. I miss my cousins, i miss all the happy times.
Honestly. i just need a hug right now. I would do anything to get to hug Lula.
Lula means so much tome. Nobody has even any idea. I swear, i cant even explain. I dont deserve him.
I am fucking sick of feeling this way. I cant be happy it wont stay. I know i fake and all so i seem happy but just, stop this pain tonight. please.
I just cant do it anymore but i promised i wouldnt leave you Lula. i just want to end it.
I just want to make all my friends happy but how can i do that when i barely function.
I literally didn't hang out with Hailey because I cant get out of this mood and i didnt want her to know.
what thefuck is wrong with me..
i just want to go home but i have no fucking idea where home is. i just cant stop crying and hurting myself i just cant stop. i dont want to anymore.. i feel like screaming and just running away.. im so pathetic. i literally have an amazing life besides my broken family and then people atschool and just... these memories. I should be over it but my mind is so fucking stupid it wont letme.
Please just make the pain go away.
i fake to you because im worthless and helpless.
so whats even the point.
i dont get why you dont let me end it.
i think one day its just going to happen...
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Hey guys~
I just wanted to post since I have been gone. I have gone over mountains and traveled through tunnels. Since I have been gone- so much has happened. Some things I am proud of, some I am not. All I can say however, is that I have grown. I am a different person- but I am okay with that. I am happy with who I am now, and while I still have my days, overall I am lots better.
So since I am an extremely busy person I do not really have time anymore for art. Well- every day at least. I am going to attempt to submit a monthly piece of art, if not more, to keep this part of my life. I miss art. I will most likely be doing different art, si
If I cared
If I cared about you at some point and we drifted apart- I still care.
That kind of feeling never goes away for me no matter what happens.
looking for advice
i think it may be time to end my 'character' part of my life. the only thing is as I keep looking, there are just a few im stll way too attacheed to. What do i do with them. I will never have time again to draw them.. ever.
this is basically art in general. i dont have time. i just looked back though, and i just, don't want it to be done. but life just isnt making time.
I would make a career out of art but im nowhere near good enough
any advce?
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*virtual hug until I can hug you irl*
(also omg hollywood undead yesyesyes )
(also omg hollywood undead yesyesyes )